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The other night, a friend told me I had a “strong online presence.” And soon afterward, I unplugged for 24 hours straight. No texting, phone calls, email, social media. This was difficult yet necessary. During those hours, I went into a sticky cocoon and cried. I cried every hour on the hour over the loss of my Dad. My body and soul needed the release. After I was done, I came out on the other side, lighter, clearer, optimistic about my next steps. For the past 18 months, I was in limbo about life as I helped my Mom and Dad.

Now, I feel a sense of freedom…of possibilities.

In February, it will be one year since I acquired Airstream Bambi. I’ve gone through Bambi bootcamp, learned about trailering, taking better photos, expressing myself through the written word.

In the past few months, I found love. There are unknowns in that area but that’s the beauty of love. It’s unpredictable and we never know how things will unfold.

What I do know for sure is that I have control over my next steps.

I have been mentally preparing for an extended road trip for some time. A trip that will give me a chance to see the states, take photos, write, and interview Asian women about their experience growing up Asian in America. With the Lunar New Year approaching, I feel it’s the right time to do this.

In February, I will take Butters and Bambi…and just drive. I don’t know what I’ll see, who I will meet, what emotional experiences I will be engulfed by. All I know is, this is necessary and the timing is right.

In the past 24 hours, I learned so much about me. I can’t begin to imagine what I’ll learn in 720 hours.

So now it’s time to drive.

Token

6 replies »

  1. And I can’t wait to read all about your 30 day adventure i.e. when you have your 720 In The Books (with apologies for the extreme stretch to make an esoteric Lindy Hop reference).

  2. First of all, I finally caught up with all my blog readings.
    I send my sincere condolences to you and yours, on the loss of your Apa.

    Thank you for sharing your beautiful memories and photo, of the man who was also responsible in giving you life and gorgeous genes. He was a very handsome man. This new life adventure, experiences and discoveries will expand and fulfill your life, but also honor and mark your Apa’s legacy.

    So looking forward to your next posting on the road. Be safe and happy trails! xoxo

    • I am so happy we met (virtually) through Airstreaming…your words give me hope and lead me to believe that there are many generous, support, beautiful people out on the road.

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